Late night ramblings
I’m tired of playing small. I’m tired of talking myself out of feelings that matter. I don’t know why I can’t just put myself out there and go for it. I spend so much time encouraging other people and building them up, but I just can’t seem to do it for myself. In fact, I tend to do the opposite. I think most of us do, don’t we? As soon as I have a great idea or something that I want to work on, I let myself completely talk me out of it – why it would be dumb, why no one would listen to me, why it wouldn’t work, how it’s already been done before, so on and so forth. But I think that our stories are too important to keep cutting it short all on your own. The world needs to hear my voice, and the world needs to hear yours, too, whatever that means. I love to be creative and I think sometimes that I get so overwhelmed with the things that I want to do, that I just figure doing nothing is better. I have no idea why that makes sense in my head, but it’s usually what happens. I’m sitting at the kitchen table at 11:30 at night and I just finished working on some stuff for my day job, and it has me thinking, why don’t I work on stuff that I’m passionate about until this late at night? Why am I content with going to sleep early when I have ideas and projects and plans and goals to work on for myself, but when it comes to the 9-5, I can sacrifice some sleep to make someone else’s dreams happen. I don’t know what this world has in store for me, but I just know that I don’t want to watch it go by. I keep waiting for this to happen, or for this time to be right, and you know what? It never will be. I need to make it happen and make the time right, or next thing I know, it’ll be 20 years from now and I’ll be looking back saying “What if?” I see so many people around me experiencing wonderful success from their own hard work, and that makes me so happy for them. But it also sets me on fire for what I need to be doing to get there myself. I know that I’m not going to make a change overnight. But that doesn’t mean that I still don’t want to try.
You are the only one who can write your own story.